ive come to expect this every tuesday.

i get lost in my own problems and frustrations way too much. if there's one person who i admire the most for being able to do just the opposite, it's my mom. she's always thinking of the way her actions and words will affect others, before just getting them out for her own self satisfaction. im still young, im still learning; you would think though, that after 18 years of living with my mom i could actually take something away from it. the concerns, the problems, the issues, the stress of her loved ones come before her own. it's a characteristic that comes with the territory of being a mom i guess, a wife, a partner in life. you absolutely have to become selfless. i want that. i want to be one of those people that someone can come to and voice their problems, not listen to me rant about my own. i seem to have this uncanny ability to find the bad in something that is so obviously good, no matter how small that bad aspect is, i find ways to magnify it and make it the biggest deal.
take 1:
"how was your lesson today?"
"ohhh my gosh, it was akjgkjlabgjer;tiuothaosifgblahblahhbgkjgBADsobgjsbgjsrgtsoannoying"
take 2:
"how was your lesson today?"
"it was tough, and i got kinda frustrated like usual. but it was still good overall, we got to jump!"

better? much.

i used to consciously try to think about what i say and how it comes off. that got lost among the stress and lab reports and mid terms and practicals and finals and day to day living. but im gonna find it again, im not gonna complain about dumb stuff. why complain about something that is supposed to be good for you? especially when its so minute that it is absolutely not gonna hurt the outcome of the rest of your life. find the good among the bad, let it overcome the negativity.