later on

I'm sorry I'm so mean, irritable, impatient. I'm sorry I'm like that. I always feel bad about it later, wish I could go back and fix it. I don't mean to seem like I'm down all the time, I promise I'm not. I don't want you to get tired of me, or wish things were like how they used to be, whatever that may be. I know I'm just digging deeper into this, it's really not that big of an issue at the moment. But in the long run, it really is. I forget to live day by day, treat each and every one like it's brand new and worth living. Do something with every day you're given. Don't waste it on fleeting emotions, laziness, or instant gratification. Find pleasure in simple things. Look at challenges as opportunities, not something to complain about. I want to do this. I need to do this.