I've been so far away from Him lately, and it's so easy to do that. I get buried deeper and deeper in my problems, my schoolwork, my busy schedule. Is it really an excuse though to be too "busy" to take time out of my day to spend with Him? No. That's an absolutely not. I don't see how people can live their lives day to day so out of touch with God. It messes me up, I cannot handle all of the things going on by myself. And I know that very well, but I still fall into that habit of trying to do everything myself. It's such a huge load on my shoulders that it starts to crush me under the weight. I break down every day. I have these revelations sometimes, where I finally sit down and take the time to be quiet. Quiet my thoughts, my head, my feelings, my soul. That's when I finally hear my Savior knocking to let Him in, and I finally open that door of my heart. It's time I let go of my troubles. I beat myself up over little things that I feel I haven't done right, but now my Savior steps in to save me from my own doing. I lay on the ground, broken and beaten, weak, wounded, at the point of expiration, but who is there to lift me back up? Yes. My God, my Jesus, my Savior.
February 8th, from the book Jesus Calling by Sarah Young:
"I am above all things: your problems, your pain, and the swirling events in this ever-changing world. When you behold My Face, you rise above circumstances and rest with Me in heavenly realms. This is the way of Peace, living in the light of My Presence. I guarantee that you will always have problems in this life, but they must not become your focus. When you feel yourself sinking in the sea of circumstances, say "Help me, Jesus!" and I will draw you back to Me. If you have to say that thousands of times daily, don't be discouraged. I know your weakness, and I meet you in that very place."
Scripture references: Ephesians 2:6; Matthew 14:28-32
I mean could that seriously be any more perfect? I shake my head in awe at the saving grace of my God. He knows when and exactly how He is going to finally get through to me that I need Him, I can't do everything on my own. I fall to my knees in reverence of my astounding God. Thank you, Jesus.
