thats all this stupid blog has turned into...a source for my complaints, my troubles, my negative feelings.
im overloaded.
im suffocated.
i feel suffocated inside myself.
theres no room to think, to breathe, to feel.
everything is crammed inside me; emotions, frustrations, knowledge, greater things.
all of my aspects have seem to fallen to mediocrity.
without room to grow and spread and just feel, i falter.
i stumble.
i choke.
i fall. hard.
then the next day, God lifts my mangled and weary mind back up and gives me a little push to keep going.
and keep going i do. spread thin and to the point of no return.
these next two weeks are going to be the ultimate test of me remaining sane and calm and not reverting to the negatives, once again.
two weeks...and im free.
talk to me then.
ill be a different person.
the first line definitely applies to me too.
ReplyDeletewe should thank God for those little pushes he gives us every day, cause we know he's doing it for our own benefit. all the stupid and seemingly pointless calc will put you over the top in college. i think you'll be so prepared, and i think college will be relatively easy compared to the work youre doing now. but im proud of you for sticking with God and still keeping hope in him.