its about time...

for you to man up. face whats coming. whats already come. and smacked you in the face.
you just wince and turn the other way, trying to pretend like its not something you have to worry about. like its not your problem. too bad it is. its my problem, its your problem.
ive tried to solve it. ive given you the tools you need to try to also, but you just dont. in all honesty, that is very saddening to me. ive done all i feel like i should. i used to care a lot. now, not so much.
seems like you dont care in the least bit, like you never did. you dont care about anything thats happened. my feelings. my emotions. my reactions. me. 
you dont care about what this did to me.  
did. as in the past.

in a sense, ive moved on. put it behind me. in another, i have not. its still tender. but i face it. unlike you. and i beat it down. i overcome it. i do not let this overpower me. ive learned to fight this with fight.
you just run away. sprint in the opposite direction, thinking that if you get far enough away, itll never catch up with you again. youll just forget all this ever happened. you hope you can make yourself forget. you just block it out of your mind completely, burying yourself in your stupid sports, your other life that has no remnants of me.
you say you have no time,
but i say thats just another excuse.

i fight this battle every day. this thing im feeling, its a lasting emotion, a powerful one. its unpredictable. i never know how strong it will be when it hits me. thats why im always ready, for however it might affect me. maybe im prideful. but i refuse to cower in shame and just wallow, just let it do whatever it may do. i have the best weapons though. they come from the Alpha and Omega. the one true God. thanks to Him, i have quite the powerful steel wall surrounding my territory. next to nothing gets through it anymore.

im stronger than you, in every single way possible.

so this is my farewell...no, this is my last stand. this is the last effort im putting into saving you. trying to help you understand, trying to help you face it. but when you dont cooperate, is there really a point? i dont see one. so. good luck. in your run away from this. i can only hope that you are stopped before its too late to turn back.