i hope you never read this.

you dont subscribe to my blog, you dont even have a blog, so you probably wont read this.

i dont even know.
im not mad.
but you keep going back and forth. i thought you had changed at least a lil bit from highschool. i dont know, maybe you have. i only talk to you through texts now. i was hopeful.
i still am.
i hope you can still change.
i hope you can experience the amazing power of our Creator, our savior, our alpha omega, the sheer and awesome power of God, like i do.
ive tried to mention it to you. i hope i did ok. i got upset when you did what you did, you just casually told me about it. even though you know i disapprove. in a way, im glad you tell me. but in another, sometimes id rather just not think about it. just shove it to the back of my mind. because what you do is an awful habit to get out of. 'old habits die hard' but i think you can do it.

you dont think of it as anything major. its just casual. it doesnt harm anyone. yeah? i dont think so.
if you dont stop now, the rest of your life could be affected. what are you gonna do with the rest of your life? highschools over. those friends dont really matter. in fact im pretty sure they arent gonna do anything now. the partiers, the popular kids. that doesnt mean anything in the real world. are they really your friends? do they care for you? do you talk to them about real stuff? can you even go to them to talk about real life stuff?
im not one to judge that. you came to me one time and talked. if that shows anything...well.
i hope youre ok.
and i hope that you know that i am here. to talk to. if you want it. because you know that if you ask me something, im gonna give you exactly what i think. straightup. the brutal honest truth.
and sometimes that is exactly what you need.