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ive made a step forward, a somewhat tentative one, but its still forward. im anxious, but in a good way. i want things to last, to turn out well, to be meaningful. i feel as if they can be that way. its so cliche to say, but it seems so different from anything in the past. im only 18, but those things you viewed so far away as a kid, well theyre not so far away anymore. in 3 and a half years i could be out in the real world, on my own. i still feel so young. i am in a lot of ways, but in others im already growing up. im gonna be cautious with this, monitor every feeling and emotion and occurance. dont let it become something it shouldnt be, dont start making it something its not and never will be. if only we could see the repercussions of our actions ahead of time. like a math equation; what happens if you plug in this number for x? do you get what you need from it? beneficial or not, life doesnt work like that.